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March 2, 2012

I just started reading Infinite Jest and it’s blowing my mind.

I’m a nerd so I had never heard of David Foster Wallace before reading his book, but now I’ve officially joined his cult. If I’m too late to this party I will start my own, one-woman cult.

As far as I’m concerned he’s the Elliott Smith of literature.

If you haven’t already, please read this, Wallace’s 2005 commencement speech to Kenyon College. I read it at work yesterday and bawled into my keyboard for about 20 minutes.

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  1. March 2, 2012 at 7:24 am

    Hey, I’m a nerd, and knew about Wallace! In fact, I’d think more Wallace fans are nerds than not. I first learned about Wallace from NPR — you don’t get much nerdier than that.

    I, too, have always immediately associated Wallace with Smith. Aside from recognizing their brilliance at their crafts and their common manner of passing, I’m not sure why I make that connection. It’s interesting that you went straight to the same place.

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  2. March 2, 2012 at 7:29 am

    This makes me very happy.

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  3. March 2, 2012 at 7:53 am

    A Supposedly Fun Thing I’ll Never Do Again — very funny.
    Also The Depressed Person

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    JSE
    March 2, 2012 at 9:11 am

    Yeah, seriously — David Foster Wallace was a giant nerd and the lived experience of being a nerd is present everywhere in his writing. Not so much “nerd” in the sense of “I get picked on,” but “nerd” in the sense of “I am presented with some big complicated system and instead of just accepting it as a whole I get kind of obsessed with taking it apart and screwing with it and tweaking it and just PICKING at it until people start saying ‘wait, are you still messing with that?'” That’s his approach to the English language, the human mind, American society, and tennis.

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    JSE
    March 2, 2012 at 9:14 am

    Oh, and Cathy, here’s what I wrote in Slate a few years ago about the relationship between DFW and math.

    “David Foster Wallace was well-known as an appropriator of prose registers that are not conventionally literary: the language of the bureaucrat, of the academic theorist, of the focus group, of the Hollywood agent. Less spoken of is the debt his writing owed to the language of mathematics—presumably because that language has no native speakers.

    Some of the mathiness of Wallace’s prose was superficial—he liked to present careful definitions of terms to be used, and he decorated his arguments with side remarks and corollaries, labeled as such. He liked numbered lists and specialized acronyms (cf., w/r/t., u.s.w.) For mathematicians, this business imparts a kind of homey charm.

    But there’s a deeper likeness, too. “We live today,” he told the Believer in 2003, “in a world where most of the really important developments in everything from math and physics and astronomy to public policy and psychology and classical music are so extremely abstract and technically complex and context-dependent that it’s next to impossible for the ordinary citizen to feel that they (the developments) have much relevance to her actual life.” Technical complexity, a turnoff to most, was Wallace’s bread and meat. He was never interested in the kind of truths that you could sum up in 10 words—which is why it’s so hard to quote Wallace 10 words at a time. You usually get something as inert as a single line of a long proof.

    Wallace’s writing was driven by his struggle with contradictions. He was in love with the technical and analytic; but he saw that the simple dicta of religion and A.A. offered better weapons against drugs, despair, and killing solipsism. He knew it was supposed to be the writer’s job to get inside other people’s heads; but his chief subject was the predicament of being stuck fast inside one’s own. Determined to record and neutralize the mediation of his own preoccupations and prejudices, he knew this determination was itself among those preoccupations, and subject to those prejudices. This is Phil 101 stuff, to be sure; but as any math student knows, the old problems you meet freshman year are some of the deepest you’ll ever see. Wallace wrestled with the paradoxes just the way mathematicians do. You believe two things that seem in opposition. And so you go to work—step by step, clearing the brush, cataloging what you find there, separating what you know from what you believe, your intuition sounding at all times the nauseous alarm that somewhere you’ve made a mistake. And until you find the mistake, there’s always a bit of hope—that your intuition is wrong, that your work isn’t wasted, that what seems like a paradox really isn’t one, that maybe the incompatible beliefs you hold can be satisfied all at once.

    Usually it doesn’t work out that way.”

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    • March 2, 2012 at 3:39 pm

      Thanks, that’s really nice! Conclusion: not too late to join this cult.

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    JS
    March 2, 2012 at 10:10 am

    I haven’t read Infinite Jest but his essays are amazing, as is his book on infinity.

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  7. March 2, 2012 at 10:25 am

    I hadn’t seen that graduation speech before. Thanks for the link, Cathy.

    I have been living in a small town for the last four years, and I think that some of those bits of awareness are made easier outside of the anonymity of sprawling suburbia. In my world, the random person at the checkout is no longer random. She’s another mom from my kid’s school, and maybe also an administrator at my work. Somehow in this little town, there are more roles than their are people to fill them. So you are forced to see different aspects of these people who are at once your colleagues, neighbors, and the parents of the kids on the other team.

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  8. March 2, 2012 at 12:24 pm

    Two random comments on Infinite Jest:

    1. It’s the best portrait of AA and it’s mysterious workings, and in particular Boston AA and its peculiar workings, that I’ve ever read. Astounding.

    2. I’m not sure I buy the complexity thing; I’m reminded of a permathread over at NC that the complexity of financial instruments is camouflage for fraud. Underneath it all, things are very simple: The kleptocrats are looting the systems that sustain the rest of us. I’m so old I remember when stories had endings, and so — at least in my reading — the way that IJ sort of dribbles off at the end disappoints me. (Compare Molly Bloom’s monolog at the end of Ulysses, or the narrative arc of The Waves.) It’s as if the organisms can’t adapt to or process the complexity, and so die, pores clogged or lungs filled with fluid….

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    • March 2, 2012 at 3:38 pm

      Haven’t gotten to the end yet, but then again I don’t want to.

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      Michelle
      March 4, 2012 at 3:11 am

      Well, what’s really missing is what connects the ending (beginning of the book) to the “ending” (last pages of the book). You’re supposed to kind of work that out, right? At least, someone did and posted about it. http://www.aaronsw.com/weblog/ijend (Cathy: spoilers! Do not read until later!)

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    Dan L
    March 2, 2012 at 3:01 pm

    By some unlucky accident, the only DFW book I read was Everything and More. What an awful train wreck. I pity the lay person who attempted to read that thing.

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      JSE
      March 2, 2012 at 3:59 pm

      It could be worse — what if the only ones you’d read were that and his book on rap?

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    madalife
    March 2, 2012 at 4:39 pm

    I’ve read the Wallace’s 2005 commencement at Kenyon College. My favorite parts of the speech would be “Everybody worships. The only choice we get is what to worship” and “If you worship money and things, if they are where you tap real meaning in life, then you will never have enough, never feel you have enough. It’s the truth.”
    A question that everyone has been asking since 930 B.C. “what’s the meaning of life?”

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    Michelle
    March 4, 2012 at 3:14 am

    I did a full-on IJ nerd-out three summers ago:
    http://infinitesummer.org/

    It was really terrific… the best online book club ever. You might want to read the entries in order as you get to the appropriate places in the book. As with great English classes in college, I got so much out of the “discussion” … saw things I didn’t find myself while reading, and they were things that made me enjoy the book all the more.

    Pale King this summer… any smart people want to post discussion about it for me while I read?

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  12. March 4, 2012 at 10:01 am

    Bleak. He gives the parable about fish in water and talks about expanding freedom of thought, but then assumes every adult is destined to live in some kind of dysfunctional suburban nightmare for the rest of their days. Shouldn’t the vision to structure and condition one’s life be considered the ultimate in freedom of thought? Even if not immediately possible, a long-term vision that includes a more palatable tomorrow should ease the suffering inherent in the day-to-day mundane portrait that DFW paints. Maybe I’m missing the point. Anyway, enjoyed your discussion of the financial system at NLC yesterday.

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    karen
    March 5, 2012 at 2:49 am

    Ah, Infinite Jest. One of my favorite books of all time. I had no idea you were uninitiated.

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  14. March 9, 2012 at 3:36 pm

    I found a copy in the math department that someone was giving away a few weeks ago. But since then it’s been sitting on a shelf under an ever-increasing pile of ideas I don’t have time to sort through. I just reordered the queu and put it on top. And thanks for the commencement speech link!

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